September 9th, 2005 Hello, welcome to my blog in which I can proudly say that I have programmed it myself! a little complicated but it shows a little that I really do learn something from my university, according to what I have been able to see I have blocked Skewers from this site (If you enter the only thing you will see is a compilation of funny falls, I hope he finds it funny) It is not that I hate him, but the truth gives me pity if he would see any of my publications... I feel happy to write in this which is relatively new, it makes me feel accompanied, I hope to make friends soon with whom I can be more often and get away from my boring job, although I should be grateful that I have something to keep the rent, but I feel that I owe a debt to the uncle of my ex-partner, he listened to my side of the story and offered me a job as a waitress in a coffee shop, the theme of the coffee shop is based on the color Pink, the Turneds (I'm too lazy to explain what they are) and the Maids, and since no one in town will give a job to a 17 year old girl who is still in college (they demand experience even to breathe) it has been impossible for me to get a better job. I am happy to at least not have to worry about college because of the scholarship I have obtained, but they demand almost perfect grades, I have to become honor roll if I am not obligated to pay and that is out of my budget, most of my expenses are in Coffee and Energy Drinks and for the moment I have been able to continue with my semesters almost perfectly, so much so that some classmates constantly ask me for help with their homework and they make me feel useful! I also help Angie with her high school homework, but it's amazing how sometimes they send her assignments that I've never seen and even I have a hard time understanding! Angie has been almost like my opposite side, extroverted to the max and with too much energy, I have known her since Kindergarten, she has always helped me to be able to socialize properly with other people and actually she has wanted me to make a closer friendship with Skewers, but I just can't yet, we both try to help each other and already at this point it is hard for me to imagine what my life would be like without her, so I offered her to move in with me which (suspiciously desperate) she has accepted, she is in charge of cleaning and keeping the peace while I pay the bills, and she makes me feel very calm, definitely having Angie as Roomie has helped me a lot with difficult things, sometimes I see Angie in bad shape but she doesn't want to tell me anything, I feel she is hiding something and it saddens me not being able to help her as she has done with me. About the new neighbors I can't say much about them, since I know them very little, Red Bow is Skewers sister, she introduced herself to us while we were walking in the mall here, for some reason she didn't know anything about the place and why all the time it was winter, so I ended up giving her my pink sweater and she seems to have liked it a lot, she really seems to be a very cute and energetic girl, she is only 15 years old but I am amazed how fast she could get used to the place. Red Bow and Skewers moved into the apartment next door and quickly became friends with Angie, I haven't been able to interact with them at all, although I admit that Skewers is very cute and in a way Angie says I'm a little attracted to him, I feel like he's one of those guys that likes rap music and video games as much as I do, I feel like I should get to know him a little bit, but how am I going to do that with such a laborious part time job, I remember when Angie found out I worked there and she ended up telling me off: How do you work for the family member of a person as pestilent as him? Don't you remember all the shit he put you through? Of course I remember, but it's not like I had a choice, as far as I know he's not that close family-wise and I've never run into him anywhere, I hope it's like that forever. About my job, the schedule is from 9 am to 7 pm Monday to Friday, on Saturdays I work from noon to 10 pm due to a Karaoke event they always do at six o'clock in which I, as a worker, am forced to sing, it seems that my ex had told the boss that I had taken singing lessons because I don't know how else he found out, but I always end up being the most requested by people twice my age, it's uncomfortable how people think my voice is Tender or Childish for their personal pleasure, but they give me some extra tip every time I do it, sometimes I would like to take vacations but they always deny me, I have had to come sick multiple times to work and do personal tasks to the boss several times, it just overwhelms me (At least it's better than still being in that place) A 20 year old guy who worked with me several times tried to flirt me but I had known for a long time that I should stay away from relationships and focus more on me (Angie's advice), he was a summer worker, but I have come to hear several insinuations that I was supposedly this guy's partner, and he started making up things that I have even had (you know) with him, the boss did absoultely nothing in his entire course of work and was too emasculating, they ended up firing him for stealing money from the cash register (apparently that's the only thing the boss if interested in, right? ) Supposedly the guy had a criminal record for robbery, posession of ilegal sustances, violence and (surprise) stalking. I hope one day I can finally graduate and fulfill my dream of being a financially stable mother, I don't know why I always wanted to be one since I was a teenager, but I have always wanted someone important in my life, now that I have thought about it, I have felt empty and wanting to find someone who was willing to be with me (except for Angie), I hate being alone. I think this is all for the moment, thank you very much to the people who took the time to read this aberration of a blog, see you later. - Angel